Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Monday, June 28, 2010

it think that it is true. So true.


with love, MIRADORA Azm.

Its like. One team, one dream.


thanks for the PSK, and a lil bit of everything.
And of course, for all the years we had;
especially to Wanibu and Fiona <3


with love, MIRADORA Azm.

Oi bitch.

with love, MIRADORA Azm.

Chubi besar.

with love, MIRADORA Azm.

;Be thankful

with love, MIRADORA Azm.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Ythink you got what it takes?


1. The purpose of the r'ship for?
2. Can you and your partner give full commitment?
3. What's the long term vision of the r'ship?
4. Must you have a relationship?
5. What's the benefits of the r'ship?
6. Can it last long? If can, till when?
7. Is the R'ship just for intimacy?
8. Are both of you and your partner ready to face the short-comings?

Those questions above you might want to take in consideration, before starting or involve in a r'ship.

So, what dyou say?

with love, MIRADORA Azm.

Come, lets bake!

SHIT. its DRIVING ME MAD.
If its possible, I wanna buy them all and go on a cake-date with my lover. Can, fatt?
But love, they're just too nice to be look at, then to eat!



with love, MIRADORA Azm.

for you, Abdul Fattah

I miss you, badly.
Hope to meet you soon, love!







with love, MIRADORA Azm.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

mira mira nak tidur.

i. am. friggin. tired.    oh, this friday is our sixth! (:           with love, MIRADORA Azm.

Monday, June 21, 2010

fighters like us dont quit. we fight.

hey. sorry for not updating much. im on my n97 now, sorry for the the dull paragraph.   its PSK season now, really busy and hectic. first weekend didnt went really good for myself and team. well guys, we know we gave em a good fight and for whatever reasons, we accept downfalls with our heads held high. we gave our best shot and we know that. infact, everyone knows that. we still have one more event to go, its not the end. we make sure we get our golds, and fight till the last gong. not only that, we fight hard. we. go and crack their asses up. lets go guys. one team, one dream. all the waaaaaay. alright? i love you guys, and i'll be with you oll thru,ayte.        with love, MIRADORA Azm.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

ADDICTED.

Flying on an airplane, looking at the window, Watching the clouds go by.


kiwak, Mama and Fishball asik bukankan Barney for Baby D. Then I yang addicted. I cant stop singging to this. Shit.

with love, MIRADORA Azm.

Woman.

Behind every man, there is an amazing woman.
- Although woman need not always be behind a man, a woman femininity can certainly propel a man to do more, and become more. Man need a source of feminine energy.

No matter what you look like, if you can cultivate within yourself that rare energy, you can be forever worshipped, as you can make your man feel more like man, and make them happy.

with love, MIRADORA Azm.

"Baby, this is for you."

Say Hello, to Chocolate.

Yepyep. I hope you love it.
I didnt tell you why I bought the chocs right? Well, Its mainly because of three things;
- I'm sorry because the beginning of the week didnt really went well for both of us.
- Take care because I've gotta check in school, and my competitions on two weekends, and Youre starting your hols, and we can barely meet each other already (well at least for now).
- And lastly, thanks. For everything.

I love you; Fatt.


with love, MIRADORA Azm.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Another one for you;

And you know why its this picture among all :D


Right now, I feel good. I feel good knowing that you care about me. I feel good knowing that you will give me a chance. I feel good knowing you see me for what I am, not what they say I am. I want you to know that each time I go to bed a picture of your face is stuck in my mind. I love how you smile at me when I said something silly.


I think I'm falling in love with you. It feels good.

Foundd, Tumblr.


Kay, ini cool. (Y)


My dreammmm hair. But not blonde, but black.
With turqoise highlights. How? (Y)


Sweet? I thought so too.
Tapi, pencil pun will be gone jugak pe.
I mean, you will keep on sharpening the pencil,right? Haa.
Exactly. Sometimes, I wonder. Do guys whom hurt us know exactly how we feel?
Especially when they meant the whole world to us. And all they do is find another one, leaving us behind. But we girls do believe in karma. What goes around, comes around. We have to be strong. And fight. And one day, when they have no one, they will come back to us - because they know, that leaving us, was a mistake. A huge one. Maybe, we do accept them back. But, we dont forget what they had done to us befo - they left us.
Quote of the day;
8. Try to keep your dependence and independence in balance. Tell your partner how much you need them, but don't get to dependent on them and cling to them all the time, as that can make your partner feel trapped. On the flip side of this, don't allow your partner to think you don't need them, by going or doing things without them. Try to keep a happy and healthy balance
between the two.

Toyfriend.

Foundd, Tumblr.
Hello world.
Current playlist; Toyfriend (David Guetta & Afrojack ft. Wynter Gordon)

Im thinking of changing to tumblr now. Well, aftr looking at all those nice pages of others. But, lecehhh ah -.-

Baby's having school now. Well I was hopping I could eat breakfast with him, since I've got no morning training. But then, he's schooling -.- Holidays next week. Good, while youre having your hols, Im schooling -.- But nevermind, Im gonna have a one month holiday in August (Y)

Im up kinda early today. Im yet to start on my homeworks. Fuggg.

So, Im going to meet Azwan later. We're going training together, since he's at AMK with his girlf now -.-

Okay, and Rabbit. You know Im refering to you. YOU ARE JUST SO CRAZILY IN LOVE. Haa. I see la kan, if on Saturday Im available. I am, but homeworks -.- Sebok ah.

Oh yeah, talking about Saturday, Baby's going off to Ubin till Tuesday. -.-' School starts, training continues, Competition season. Maybe honey, we take a break from here?

And by the way Lili Muslihah, if youre reading this, here's a lil note for you;
I MISS YOU BIG TIME BABYGIRL

Mira. Type.

Mira. Ngantok.
Mira. Just touched her homework.
Mira. Belom start on her homework.
Mira. Plan to start on Geog's project dulu.
Mira. Worry about the time left to finish all her homework.
Mira. Body aching.
Mira. Nak massage.
Mira. Lapaar.
Mira. Malas nak pack bag.
Mira. Malas nak check in sekolah on Sunday Night.
Mira. Taknak pergi sekolah pun.
Mira. Worry about results pun.
Mira. Tau confirm she screw all her papers.
Mira. Concern about her preparations for PSK.
Mira. Worry if the competition will clash with homework.
Mira. Rindu Fatt.
Mira. Nak tido.
Mira. Ada Geog assignment kene buat sekarang.

Mira. Go off now.
Mira. Cakap bye kat korang semue.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

HELLO AFIQAH SAM (Y)

HELLO YOU PRETTYHEAD.



K, i taktau youve been reading my blog la kan. Haaaaa. Anyway, nice chatting with you man. Haha. I nak choose gambar on your FB, susah. Banyak lawa nak mampos, dont know which one to choose. Im sorry la kan, banyak punya busy, cannot teman you go shopping. We'll go out some other time bile kita dua free okay, pretty? :D

Eh, i thought youre on HIS side sia. Skali tak. BAIK AH LU GIRL *high 5!*

So yes, new friend founddd. Lawa right? Shes one year below me.





HELLO AFIQAH SAM.

Formspring.Me

"Hey girl , What 's up with you and boyfriend ? It 's all over FB, and your blog . You alright ? D;"

"Oh. That. Haaa. Err. Well, ups and downs in a relationship. Happens all the time, right? I have to say Im okay - I have to convince myself that I am. Things hadnt changed to any better for the time being. But, I'll be fine. I love him, and. I dont know how much longer I can hold on to this feeling and situation I'm in now. I hope things will go back to normal, change for the better as soon as possible. I cant afford to cry myself to sleep everynight any longer. And thanks, for asking dear. I didnt know people are actually reading up my blog. Haa. Take care, alright? Nights! (:"

Formspring.
http://formspring.me/miraidora

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Where are you? Where have you been?

I think that the most difficult person to understand, is Yourself.

That's exactly what I told my heart.




I wanna hold your hand.
I want to smell you, I want you to hold me and tell me Im perfect just the way I am. I try to start picking up your hobbies as mine, just in the hopes that it will make me understand you better. I want to know everything.

And love, means nothing back. Love means holding you, and being afraid because I can lose you at any moment,but the fear is what that keeps you hanging on.

So, is love fear? I dont think so. What I love about you is that Youre my bestfriend. I tell you stuffs which majority, not most people know.

Now, whenever I look at our picture, everytime, It tears me up. I wonder, how I can get things back to place, sort things out. What went wrong, which rules did I break?

Where are you now, when nothing's going right?
Where are you now, when I needed you the most?

My heart is breaking. I cant sleep at all. Trying to get through this, but I dont know how to get myself through this. I know that I only got myself to blame. But that doesnt help to ease the pain.

I still need you beside me.


"It seems when you want someone, they dont want you. And when someone wants you, you dont want them. And when you both want each other, something has to come around and mess it up."

I cry myself to sleep - thinking when will this last. Whenever, by any chance I was left alone, I would stare at my phone, hopping that I'll get a text from you. I think, I got myself way too attached to you now already. Please, I need to hear something from you. I love you dear. Really, I do. Im sorry.


Sucks much. I can advice my girlfriends, my hunkies and all. But sadly, when it comes to me - even for the simplest things of all, I cant advice myself.

Im. Sorry.

Hey you chubi besar.
Im sorry, alright. Really. I guess youre sleeping now, thats why you didnt reply my text.
I love you;
& Im sorry once again.
Goodnight lova♥

Monday, June 7, 2010

Thanks Meimei.

This really made my day. Im sorry meimei, Uploading this without you knowing till you've read my blog. Its not paisey-ness. Its adorable. Really.

*Ouch

I Miss......Smiling


I'm sorry. I just. I couldnt talk, at all.
You left me speechless.
I dont know how to react to that, I swear, I dont know. But, what happen afterwards really left me hurt.
When you let go of my hands. When you didnt look at me in the eye before you left. When you didnt say anything.
I dont know how to describe the feeling, and the thought Im facing now. Im hurt. For sure.
I can barely smile now. I wanna talk things out. But, talk what out?
time check, 11.56pm.
I didnt know how to react to that, love. Should I comfort you? but what if you tend to continue, and think that I think its alright? Should I get mad at you? But then, I understand that people dont change overnight. Im sorry,again.
I cant go on with us, being like this. You know, I have a fragile heart. You know my weakness. Please. You tell me, what should I do to get things back to place. But for whatever reasons, never take 'leaving' as an answer. I know, I remembered, you told me you'll leave. Because it'll eventually hurt me further. But, no. Its gonna hurt me more if you leave. Please,
Im sorry, really.
Its better to keep him than for him to keep his promise.
Lastly, Im sorry. For everything.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Satu hari bersama si dia.

Hello world.
Not much pictures. But had fun, as usual. Everyday is special with you.
Thanks Abdul Fattah.

Friday, June 4, 2010

the one for suhaila. (Y)

this one's for you, Nurul Suhaila a.k.a Meimei.

Dont be afraid to let go.
Dont admit that youre too weak to let go.

Of course, it hurts. It hurts to see someone you love happy with someone else. I've been there,too. It didnt last - You got too close, he took off, taking your heart with him. But remember, by remembering back the past, get sad over those pictures, makes you a better person, dear? No, it doesnt.

Of course, if the truth was told instead of a lie, the pain would go away sooner and not hurt as much. But things had happen, and there's nothing much you can do about it.

Look. Honey, be strong.

Think. Youre here, sad, writing posts and all about him, hoping that he would realise his flaws and all. And him? He is acting like as tho nothing had happen, because he's with another person, another companion. So, you tell me. Is it worth it for you to cry over him? To get sad over him?

Meimei, Youre a friggin strong girl. Dont let one element pull you down. Thats not the way. Instead, you get back up. You show him that youre so much better without him. You show him that youre stronger without him.

And you show him, that you friggin believe in karma. (Y)


To let go does not mean to stop caring,
it means you cant do it for anyone else.
To let go is not to deny,
but to accept.
To let go is to fear less and love more.
Like what I told Shaila, "Remember, time is to love is short."


Im here if you need me. I know what its like to be in your shoes. Been there, done that. I know.words seems so easy. but its all about the determination, to get over.

Come on, Suhaila. He is not worth it. He is not worth your tears. He is not worth your time. He doesnt deserve you, and thats for sure.

He'll regret. Go, let him explore love all he wants. But one day, when karma speaks for itself, he'll come back. He'll come crawling. He'll come begging for you love. He'll regret.

Remember, what I always tell you to note to yourself,
"He lost something amazing, He lost you. You get back up, be yourself, be strong."


Love you mei. Dont be a dysfunctional bitch like her. (Y)

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Move On. Dont hold On.

It felt like you were hiding something,
but I didnt push it, I didnt complained or say nothing.
I tried acted like I didnt see it,
cause deep down I knew I didnt want to believe it.
And there it was, it was you and her.
I thought it was you and I.
Now all I got to say is Why?
After all the times that we tried,
I find out that we were living a lie.
Specially for you; Nurul Suhaila

My body aches, and filled with bruises.

yes, bruises. I am not abused, but it is just normal. Its the nature of my sport.


Good day, Earthlings.
Tomo's the day, the FRYYYDAAAAYYYY. Going to have dinner with DanYew and KakMoon (Y) But meeting love first. (Y)

But first of all,
Morning, training. And then swimmingminggg. And then meet love. And then meet DanYew&KakMoon. And then back home. Thank god tomo's friday. Been really tired with trainings everyday, and I still havent touched my homework yet. FML.


Alright, next post is going to be about my darling - Nurul Suhaila. Its for you okay, read it, munchkinnnnnn.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Dear readers.

To all my babies who find moving on or letting go is hard,


Stop thinking that,

"Im tired of waiting for you. Im sick of falling for your words. I want to leave, but something about you keeps pulling me back in."
Do yourself and your heart a favour ; turn around and leave. It may not be what you want, but this shit is not what you deserve. You deserve better. Go.
You should start thinking that,
"Did yknow that you used to mean a lot to me? Well yeah, thats true. Now, youre just another face in the crowd."

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

oi chubi, i love you.

hello. finally, im back on lappy and not my n97.
so, here's a lil something for that skinnyfaggot who loved me and who is loved, deeply and truely by me.
Hello Abdul Fattah.

one - we deserve better. sayang, thanks. for everything. you changed my life. you made it better, full of joy. Im not going to leave you - again. Im not, and I want you to remember that. I know its hard for you to accept that Im back again, but please. I know. People have been telling me to think carefully of what Im doing and.. The point is that, I already found someone who really and tuely loves me for the way I am. So. Im going to treasure and appreciate your love before I'll come begging and finding for love. It always better to love those who loves me, true?
Sayang, I wont leave, because Im not finished yet. Im not finished loving you.
two - im sorry. im sorry i left you before. now that I know you fatt, the thought of.. leaving. just the thought if leaving hurts me bad. i love you, too, fatt.
three - of course. of course i hugged you like theres no tomorrow. of course I let you hold me till the very last. Of course I love you truely. Of course I came back strong, not fearing for the worse, but for the better.
four - i feel good too, when i know you feel good whenever you know that i love you. Its gonna be hard for me if you were to walk away from my life now. So please, fatt. Dont pull yourself out from me. Dont give up on me, please. Hey, I left you before. And she left you before. You chose me, instead of her. I'll be a one big fat ass bitch if i Leave you again, right? Please honey, have some faith. I love you, and thats all that matters. When we hold hands or hug, it seems like all problems just fade away and we're closer to each other.
five - we click. of course. like no other. like. no. friggin. other.
six - waiting/waited. Grabbed your hands tight and whisper, "i love you too." Our lips met, and its the sweetest lips ever. I have yet to grant your last wish. Yet.
seven - love. Now, when I think about love, all I can think about is you. I have that thing that everybody else wanted, I wont take it for granted. I have. You.
eight - no one else can share your love for me. Nor does anyone else gets my love, like you do. You got that right, honey. Absoloutely.

nine - "if i died and went somewhere far, I'd write your name on every star. So everyone could look up & see, that you meant the whole world to me."



Nine. Nine things about us. I bet there's more.
Nine, your favourite number, aint it? :D
Hey faggot.
Hey Abdul Fattah,thanks. For everything.