;And I want you to know.

I just hope that I get to be the one who will get you going.

I love talking to you, I love who I am when Im with you. Because I am myself when Im with you. I try to be the best you ever had, but apparently there are others whom you would prefer. I made a mistake before, and Ive learnt. Im sorry

Ive made the wrong decision, to leave and love all the wrong guy. Things never come easy for me, and It has always been so hard. Whatsmore, somehow I bet, Its gonna hurt me if youre going to be with someone else in the near future and not me. I admit, I left you. I know, it must have been hard for you. I know, you needed me at that very point of time. I didnt realise how much It hurts until I knew that Youve moved on.

But how come talking about other girls made me jealous?

But hey lover. I didnt leave you for any other guy. I didnt know what I wanted and. Fuck life.

I want to know what Love is. And I bet, you can show me. Again.

I. want. to. start. over.

Yes, we are. You can do that. I can too. But will things be the way it was last time? When there's only me and you?

Readers, When you told someone your deepest secret nobody has ever knew, who is He to you?

That night I lied on my bed and cried. Cried because I realised that I had the perfect guy in my life. Not because I deserve better. But because you do.

but, that doesnt mean that I dont love you.

and its going to hurt me to see you with another girl in near future and not me.

xoxo

;Its for my dearest.

Hey honey. This one's for you.


He is not treating you right. NO girls deserved to be treated like that. And tell me, if he can do it to other girls, he can also do it to you. Its only the second month and he's already acting up all chubi already. Im not asking you to leave him, but its all up to you. I know, youre holding on to it right now but honey, you always do. And you always give in in this relationship which I think shouldnt be the way ah.

His friend asked him if youre his new 'toy' infront of you. Maybe its because of his past which you dont know, and you have yet to find out. I know, you assume that he changed.

But if you gave him your last $10 for the week to him and he didnt show any signs of being grateful to have someone like you, why dyou still bother to hold on to it?




Take your time. Or not. Decide whats good for you. And whats not.











Readers, tell me. Its a one sided love,aint it?

Toldchu, Girls should never start and get serious with things too fast and early because she will only end up hurting herself.

Please, been there, done that.

for you Sayunuri

Eh aku strong ah. Stronger without kau ah.

Chubi really opened up my eyes and made me think about everything deeper. Well, what he told was me was exactly what I needed to hear. And chubi. Thanks alot for everything and everyday. I know, Ive texted you already - the 6 pages long msg, but there's another one here for you.

You made my Saturday, you made my day. I really need that badly and for the first time, You live me up within one day. HAHA. But again, had fun with you, walking from Dhoby Ghaut to Bugis. I know Ive been living under the shell to long, but hear this; "If its me and my bestf, she'll get lost first and she'll depend on me for directions." HAHA. So, that means Im not THAT blur la kan. Haha. The rainbow thing thing was nice. And the chocolate shake with pearls helped through the walk. Wait. Im not done yet. And the Brownies and Icecream was the HIGHLIGHT of the day, i swear. And I must say that I am honoured that you brought me to your workplace, introduced me to your friends, showed me around and all. And and Im the first girl you brought over. Definitely, I feel special. (Y)

When you told me you never ever thought of deleting me in your life, I tear. I know I've made a mistake to leave you before and hurt you bad. I know I'm Wrong. Eventhough you've forgive me already, I will still remember that I was wrong.

You told me you fall for me once, And you will always be.
You told me no one deserve to be treated badly.
You told me it hurts you to me getting hurt.
You told me that you're glad to know someone like me.

And you told me you did everything because you want to be there for me.

Its Saturday, I met brownies with icecream. Its Saturday, you cheered me up. Its Saturday, I finally knew how to walk from Dhoby to Bugis. Its Saturday, I finally knew that I've been living under the shell for so long. Its Saturday, You made my day. Its because Its Saturday, I love Saturday.




















On the other hand, To you who broke me heart badly.

youre sucha jerk and I hate guys like you. Whatsmore, you dont worth my time and Guys like you are just so typical. Who cares if you read this post or not, but if you, I want you to know that You are missing the good things in life for leaving me. You are missing the good things in life because you lost someone whose willing to guide you through. Stop thinking that youre a guy and you can use and do anything to any girl. And stop telling your friends that Im crazy over you and You dont like me and Yout think I'm annoying and all. Please. One thing you dont know about me is that;

Eventhough Im fifteen, I know how guys like you treat a girl. Please.
And perhaps, the reason you gave me is so typical. It is JUST a reason and easy to say, to bottom line is that you never liked me before and you just want to play around with the girl's heart. But, somehow I think youre a coward. Why dont you just tell me off straight to the point? Why dyou have to twist everything? It must have been difficult to pretend, aint it?

We may be friends in the future, but my thought of you never changes - Youre the guy that left me over some stupid reason, Youre the guy that shattered me to pieces, Youre the guy who deleted my post on your wall, Youre the guy who have used me, Youre the guy who had wasted my time, Youre the guy who cheated my feelings, Youre the typical guy whom I can meet anywhere. And. Youre the guy whom I thought was different but wasnt and I.

I dont deserve you. I deserve someone who loves me, and not you. I deserve somene else, I dont deserve you.

Guess what fucker;You lost something amazing. You lost me.

Note to All my people.

Nanti bile I sampai rumah, i upload dekat my private blog lagu lagu yang Girlfs I ngn I nyayi okay. Jangan cakap tk sedap ah, kite memang tk boleh nyayi. Effort mesti ada(:

Be strong.

A simple note. A bold meaning.

This one goes out to all the people who have been broken but still strong enough to let go.
For all the people who have hurt so badly that they felt they could never love again, but kept their heads up.
For the people that wish loneliness wasnt a part of them, but put up with it anyhow.
For the people who wake up in the morning with no missed calls and text messages but smiled anyway.
For the people that pick up the phone so tempted to call, but keep their dignity intact instead.
For the people that never wanted to let go, but had to.
For the people that still believe in love even after all of the hurt their heart endured.
For the people that needs inspiration.

When the world is falling apart. When there's no light to break up the dark. When the world has no one.

"What are you thinking about?"
"You."
"Me? What about me?"
"Well, Im trying to figure out where is this going."
"Oh. Well. That. I dont know."
"I know who I am in love with, but for now I dont have the energy to be in a relationship."
"Okay. I understand. But you know I love you and we had our times together and..."
"Well, isnt that enough?"
"I dont know."

He never called, he never texted. For a long time, I was wreck.













But that doesnt mean that I dont miss him.

Chubi, i need you now. And i mean it.

Chubi Chickies

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Yesterday night was awesome. Thanks alot to FATTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

First, after SST webcam-ed with Jeff and Daniel.

Then with Izhwan.

Oh yeah, Bestf. Good luck for your race later okay. I miss you la love. I know, one school. But hadnt talk to you for quite sometime. Vithya couldnt make it this Saturday. Hmm. Im thinking of going library, study. You wanna tag? I doubt so. HAHA (:

Apart from that..
Faaaaaaaaaaaaatttttttttttt;
Eh gemok. THANKS for making my day semalam la kan. After so long tk bebual, semalam baru gile gile. Hyper maot. HAHA. I then realised that You were the one who were like telling me everything about your school and lifes and updates. Macam banyak bende sangat gitu kan you nk bebual. HAHAH. Banyak chicks pat ITE pe? HAHA. Eh, you better be honoured and comment on this post okay. And guess what. I cant wait for you to dapat you driving liscence, and caaaaar. So You can send me to school la kan! Tak payah susah susah naik MRT, tunggu bus. HAHAHA (:


Quote of the day,

"Well, you dont descriminate. Im the 15 year old you fell in love with Last February."

You ended what you started. You ended what we had. You ended me.

-Miraidora

i thought you wouldnt text. but then you did.
one thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind.

im confused.
should i leave you? or not?

You?
You just dont want to talk about it, dont you. Are you leaving Us behind? I admit. Its only a short period of time. But.

Its unfair. I reserved my love for the next one to come. The next one whom I think would deserve. I chose you. But, Ive made the wrong choice. A fucking wrong choice. I let you have and I gave all I got to keep on loving and keep our love going on but. Its all. A. Plenty. Waste. Of. Time.

Why does it always have to be this way? When I thought he is the perfect one, He left me?








Apart from that, I would like to say. Thanks FATT. For making my day. I just feel like talking to you and let all my thoughts out. Seriously. We should Starbucks one day. Hahaha. Okay, Freda? (:

And also my gorgeous Roomies. And. Happy Birthday Liana. I knw you had a blast one, sweety. (Y)


;Whose gonna walk me back to school on Sundays now?
(i)i miss you,love(/i)

i feel all alone, when youre not with me.

i feel like thrash. i know, for sure you've read the text i've sent you yesterday night. yes. think of it. i really hope the decision that youve made is really what you want. well,at least i thought i was your pillar and strength - like what you were to me. go and take your time. slowly. easily. * apart from that, i hate what im feeling now. you left me so wounded. you told me i woudnt understand. i know how youre feeling, i know because i've been thru. its like. you really dont know what you want, until you get yoself in a fucked up situation. but baby, why does it have to be now? you told me not to be upset. you told me you dont want to break my heart. oh honey, you already did. it sucks to know that i found you, it sucks to be in the situation we are in now. but wait. yeah,youre right. i dont understand you - how come the last time we met everything was perfectly fine, and then the Next day youre telling me all the bullshit stuffs?

;so tonight, im going to find a way to make it without you.

even if youre a million miles away, i can still feel you.

; I should have known that Youre gonna break my heart.

I was good, a few seconds ago. I swear.

I wouldnt deny that You were always there to keep me smiling and move on everyday.


I didnt expect anything like this to happen to us. I swear, I didnt see that coming. I dont know what you want exactly. Now, you kept me thinking - that feeling just came overnight, or it has been going on for days? If it has been, you should have told me earlier.

I couldnt believe myself that I fall for someone like you. You. But, you made me feel so comfortable. I was myself whenever Im with you.

When was the last time I really fall for a guy? Tell me. All I did, was mingle around. And so I met you and I decided to stick to you. But then, You were the one who broke my heart. How cliche is that?

I dont know how i should feel now, i swear to god. Should I be sad because this might be the end of us? Which I already think it is? Or. should i just stay calm, and relax. Because youre not worth it.

But. Why now? Youre telling me all the crappy stuffs after all that we've been through. Ive expected alot from you and. I just hate the feeling Im feeling now. What the fuck.


I still cant believe how much I depended on you on stuffs and most importantly, Your Love.
I guess that for us being friends now just doesnt seem right. I mean, is this what you really want long ago? I know, i told a couple of my friends that We wouldnt last. But i wasnt expecting it to be this 'long'.

Im still curious about whats keeping you so stressed out. Or is it just because you needa break. I dont know.

If you give me a chance, I would start it all over again. All over. But make sure you stick to your decision. And. Ergh. Fuck it.


Remember, I told you before that;
For it was not into my ears that you whispered. But into my heart.
Its not my lips that you kissed. But my soul.

just remembered. My life was always so suckish and never been right. Wait. It still is.
It sucks to know that Im tearing now. Because of you.







"I remembered what you wore on our first date. Maybe its true,that i cant live without you. And maybe its true, and now im thinking that two is better than one."

When i grip your arms tight, this song will then just appear in my head. Thats when you hear me humming the song,love.

macam finally gitu kan.

YES AA. BLOGGING THRU N97 NOW. TAPI MCM CHUBI ALL CAPS LOCK. KEH. JAP. I TRY ANOTHER POST.

; my only subject was him

Well. Why dont they let me love you?

I wish she would understand. I wish she could be the one giving me advices and all. I wish. But I guess that it's not going to happen. Dad seems cool, but I hadnt tried talking to him about this. Never. But I know, he would understand me better. I dont know how to put words together to make sure I'll get what I want. I guess all she'll say is, "Study comes first. Silat. Youre too young. It'll only distracts you."

I hate it. Yes, Im young, But I'ma teenager now. I want freedom. Well, when i said Freedom you'll know what I mean by that. Im growing. And, you always make it sounds like as if Im still a small lil kid. Dont you know how bad I want you to be more understanding towards me?

Love. Well. I bet you didnt know how much He gave me life. Im not saying that You didnt play your part. You did. But, obviously there's something wrong when I tend to depend on the other person and not you, right?

Wait. Im not done yet.

He made me smile all along - while Im in school and even at home. I like the feeling whenever I know that he is there for/with me. And i guess, you've fallen in love too when youre teenagers right?

You just cant stop nagging to me about all these matters. You always want to know who Im out with. You always ask everything. Yes love, You did your part. Youre caring towards me. You wanna know who are my friends. Of course you wouldnt want me to mix around with bad companies. Yes, I know, Only if youre understanding.

Major miscommunication. I seldom talk to you when Im at home. If we talk, its all about other family stuffs, and most of the times crazy stuffs. But. Whenever I have problems regarding this, I wouldnt be able to open and share it to you. I wouldnt be able to ask you advice and seek help. I always have to rely on friends who knew exactly what happened and whats going on all along. But as a matter of fact, I want you to know all about that. I want you to be the one by my side. But. You dont understand.

I hope that one day you get to read this. I hope I get to print this for you. I hope at least Dad gets to read it.

; Again. I dont know how to put it to words to tell you. Im scared.

For sure. My life would be so much brighter if you would understand, Because. You know me best.

wait.

i swear to god. i dont know who I should trust right now.

Anyone?

Wait. No one.

I wish you know that.

I want freedom. I need your understanding. I know you love me. But. I need you to be open.

It hurts to see everyone being so close to theirs. Sharing their relationship life. And all other dirty little secret. Their diary is their mom. Mine?

I wish You would understand. I dont know how to tell you.

; Malam malam, kalau bawak laptop pergi sekolah.

" Well Sha. Love doesnt come overnight."
"True. But. Overnight tk overnight. Kau nye laptop overnight pun tk on on."

- Shazira Sharpain Superman Sadface Shazaay Nimble Olalala.

(Note that this long name only refers to ONE person.)

HAHAHAHA.


; Oh god. Im falling sick already. And. Im missing you already. MSS (:

; Geography project. Pening kepale.

Geog project is a pain in the ass. Doing on Singapore's development - Education. I think i'll be going over to Library again to study this Sunday and maybe finish up on the project, and then let Bevo and Seaweed to edit a lil here and there.

Commonwealth's Essay is due tomorrow, 1400 words. -.- Maths Quiz is tomorrow, Social studies module test is tomorrow. Vo'defuck. I guess tonight i'll have to sleep a lil late. shit.

Im missing my Million Dollar Mutton badly. Its been days since i last texted her and went out with her. i wonder when is our Chaper four outing.

I know, i hadnt update my blog for so long. been busy with everything. school, training, stuffs. and stuffs.

this saturday will be rather hectic. morning icebath with team, then off to auntylina's house for cousintwinny's birthday party. and also. after that i guess i'll straight go off to library and be back home late. Possible? I hope so.

;Gotta go now. gotta continue on geog's essay. and powerpoint presentation. and search for education's flowchart. shucks.


Much love,
MIRAIDORA AZM.
anything, comment. please be nice.

princess' birthday.

Nothing special today. At least had fun With the team During Afternoon training.

Wah, Hebat. Wahwah, HebatHebat.

JYEAH. She is back from JB. Yknow guys, It feels so good to be as a team with the Grasio family - again. The last time was like, what. 2007? Yeah, it feels so good.


Competition was great. At first, everything was normal. Until Singapore swept all the Seni GOLD Medals, and won majority of the matches. Slowly, the WHOLE Plaza Angsana was against us. The jeers, and all. It was horrible. But, Thank G-O-D, kite rilek.

"Never bring ourselves to their level."

To summarise things up, Im proud to say that Grasio have won;

21 GOLDS, 2 SILVERS & 7 BRONZES.

One for all, all for one, Grasio Number One.

; Note

To me, True love is the sweetest thing in life. Thats why we're all either in love, Or looking for love. Sometimes, you have to work for it - especially when life gets in the way - but I believe that, deep love is worth fighting for.

; i hope you know that its you im talking about

Yeah. Finally i started blogging again.

Well, for public blog, i guess my post today is going to be damn short. Yeah, changed layout. Back to basics. Better, simpler.

Anyway. Days wasnt so great, with trainings and school and problems. Too tired to even do anything. Didnt do well for Module One, especially Conbined Science, Social Studies and Maths. I'm already like so tired today, but still I have tons of homeworks undone. and WTF, its a Saturday and Im at home, rotting. Let me tell you what I have on my list now, aye;

Biology - Workbook

HML Kefahaman

Social Studies - Bobby Sand's

English Passionata

Maths

Geog - WKSHT & Essay.

Other than that, I seriously need a new wardrobe. Shopped last Saturday with Ms Hotness And Co., but still not enough stuffs.

Oh yeah, i got in to the next round for the Sports Reality show stuff. Its like the Sports @SG TV show. Get to host for 8 episodes, and 2 episodes on YOG. Tomorrow is the last audition, after that the final 2 will get selected. And peeps. Wish me luck!

And not forgetting, Ive got selections too, tomorrow. For Johor competition, Grasio. Wish me luck for this too, aye!

And to you, whom I hadnt text for so long. : First thing, I hope you know who the f*ck you are. Okay, Ive read your latest status, with the M.Fcking CAPITAL LETTERS. Please, I am not with anyone else, or even with ANYONE. Please get your facts right. Seriously. My other previous status were not meant for anyone, as theyre just Phrases and Quotes. Youre a nice guy, Youre nice to me. But, WTF, i dont mind not having you in any part of my life since you want to erase me PERMANANTLY. I dont give a fcuk. And guess what, Its your lost. Not mine. Better make it clear. C.H.U.B.I. Now, if youre reading this, i bet you know that Im really refering to YOU.

I'm sorry for being harsh, peeps. But sometimes, people just.. Hah.

But still, anyway..

Purple Leather Jacket, Tank top, Faded Jeans and ma Paul Smith's HighTop shoes tomorrow? Cool?

; Awards Night shopping

hey hey. damn tired today man. when shopping with Chal & Jenell. Chal's sister is damn pretty man. Seriously :D

Was walking to meet Jen at Starbucks CityLink, then got this girl ran towards me. Gave me a card, modelling company, blahblahblah, looking for freelance model, asked for my height, age and also number. 3rd time. different company. i should give it a try eh, but sian. school so busy, how to go sia.

Bought awards night dress already, and heels from Charles And Keith. Happy. But the heels is like damn high, and i look damn tall.

I sing the body electric, here i come. :D

Next week awards night, insya allah i'll post the pictures kay people.

Bye. Ngantok buah lychee ah. Besok must go my uncle's house, got kenduri. then straight go school. Maybe meeting jenell first lor. To buy her strapless braaa. Haha.

; Macam at last gitu kn, i dapat klua.

So, after going percc for some SSC stuffs, went out with my Shabiboiiiiiiiiiii. Omg, i love her. Shes the only one who can make me laugh like hell and feel so comfortable, whenever i go out. :D

So, let me tell you how the day went. HAHA.


First, went to Jurong East to meet two of my blogshop customers. (Got $55 eh. Hehe) Then after that, we're hungry. And thought of eating at Dhoby Ghaut since after that we're heading to Clarke Quay la kan. So we took red line.. And then, when we're sitting and talking, we happen to be at Bukit Batok. And so, i did mentioned that the West Mall looked so old and ugly -.-

And then Sha was like, 'Are you thinking what im thinking?'
And then i was like, 'No. What are you thinking?'
HAHAHAHA.
and then sha said, 'LETS EAT HERE.'
hahahh.

And so, the both of us rushed out of the train just right before 'doors closing'. :D
Then we stepped into the West Mall, the inside okay ah. Got M]phosis all. But still, nothing interested to shop there -.- The place is just like Whitesands, but Whitesands is like so much better, i think. HAHA. anyway, of all places, we ate at Burger King. i swear, BK kat sane was like super empty. It was huge, but empty.

Sha : Mira, you wanna buy first and let me sit?
Mira : For what? Just buy together la. No one is gonna take our place anyway, sha. its freaggiinnnnnnnnn empty la.
Sha : Hahaha. Ya, true ah.

The both of us didnt manage to finish our lunch, tho. HAHAH. Sha bought the meal (which of course includes the fries!) While i just bought the burger. And then sha told me that she had wasted her money for buying so because she didnt finished it.

And then i simply answer her, "HAHAHA. i didnt, sha. im helping you eating yours. *smiles* "

Good one ah mira. hahahahaha. okay. next stop, the train.

So we were on the train, and i was just giving her some riddles. HAHAH. okay fake. okay, so we talked about how training went while i wasnt around, the hot topic in school, latest gossips which the both of us already knew, but we just talked about it again, and also. many things la. the trip from Bukit Batok to Dhoby Ghaut long sey and my legs were like frigginggggggggggggg tireeeeeed. Okay, then came this two Ah Lian, with Anime slash Goth costume. Omg. So i decided to give Sha dares, which of course i know was so insane and she wouldnt dare to do and i myself wouldnt. HAHA. OKAY CHUBI. okay, so..

Mira : Sha, i dare you to go to those two girls, and say "Omg. You should have known right? This is freaking singapore la puh-leeeeeeeeseeeeeeee. Your 'costume' *with hand gestures* are only allowed in Japan. This aint Anime or what girl, LEARN." HAHAHAH.
Sha : Siak ah mira. hahahaha. no i wont la! hahaha. *laughs*
Mira : *looks at her sequins high cuts which is so damn OBVIOUS, from Rubi* Wait, not finished yet. and, also go and say, "And, your shoes are like freaking $39.90. HAHA. take that ah."
Sha : *laughs the way she laughs, with her hand covering her mouth* hahahah. stop critisizing people la mira, omg. hahahah.

Anyway, i also asked her to talk with the Bitchy-step-British sleng kinda thing. HAHAHA. which is simply bitchy and plain irritating. i swear.

Okay. then back to the train trip.

Skali HerBoyfriend message.. Guess who? Jeffry Adam Lightfoot la. HAHAHA. He told us he dah sampai. Ah, amek kau. tunggu ah lame lame. Who asked you to come damn early, before timing? HHAHAHA.

Eh shit, i malas ah nk finish kan. next time eh? Nk blogshop :D Besok going haji lane. Yeah babehh, Nk gi 'Best of Blogshops'. :D And i baru je panaskan Nasi Briyani Ayam. sedap sedap sedap. Bye/


PRIVATE BLOG UPDATED EH RAKAN RAKAN.

I've got fever, Im hot. And it cant be stop.

This week was rather short for me. Why? Pfft.

Checked in on Sunday night with Girlf and Bestf. Then got fever on Monday aftnn. Checked out on Monday nnight, with Achikmok. Then on Tuesday morning went to doctr, had 2 days MC. but on Wednesday night, temperature shot up to 40.4. Dangg. So, didnt go to school the next day. Went polyclinic, doctr took H1N1 sample test. If positive, he'll call. If not, he wont. I hope he doesnt *crossfingers* Doctr gave me 9 bottles of medicines. Its cause, I dont and cant eat tablet. I'll throw up. Tts why the doctr gave me baby's medicine, but higher quantity of course. Hahaha. And besides tt, doctr gave me 3 days MC. if i still have fever or Sat, i'll have to come down to polyclinic again to take bloodtest -.-

Im worried about checking in school next week. Cause you see, beenmissing quite alot of lesson this week already. Chemistry, Bio, Maths. I hope i can handle and catch up well with the help of 2 hours of SST! :D

Omg, i teringat pasal Freda. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Bestf, Girlf and DannyKenchee, i so have to tell you about this. hahahaha.

Been blogshopping for quite a while now, searching for awards night dress. Yeah. And hope on Saturday i could go out with Bestf and Girlf to Clarke Quay for the flea market, Haji Lane for some blogshops shop. And maybe bugis or something to check out heels :D

Till here, peace outs.

its 2010.

okay, so only today i feel like blogging. hahaha. chubi eh, after so long. hahaha. okay, so basically, im back. jyeahhh.

its 2010. and i had a good and fresh start of 2010.


i swear, i hate 2009. its probably the worst year of my life, but still some of the days were memorable and unforgettable. but other than that, 2009 still suck. been losing all games/matches/tournament/competitions. didnt put in maximum effort. and because of that, i started to think about quitting and all those bullshits. but alhamdullilah, i had a good and fresh start of 2010, i hope that nothing can ever change my mindset.

talking about quitting, i would like to first thank Kak Dini and Abg Shakir for being such an inspiration to me. Well, during the event yesterday when all the Sea Games athletes had to speak up, your words as a experienced, motivated, example seniors, really inspired me deeply. it was a wake up call. I lost my passion when i started losing and losing throughout the whole year. BUT im glad that i've changed my mind. Afterall, its all Junior. i have not reached the Senior stage yet. Yes, i lost throughout 2009, but i know, in a way or another, my time will come soon.

Like what Abg Shakir said, 'I was his shadow 3 years in a row. Whenever there's competitions, trials, he will always get to go. Whenever we had selections I'll always lose to him. But because of my Passion, I waited. I know my time will come. And it did.'


yes, exactly.

This year insyaallah, i wont let that happen. Im starting to train my best. Alhamdullilah, kickings on paddings are slightly better. But i need more confidence to apply it in matches.

I just realised something. Somehow, Ive wasted my 2009 cause of getting to know the other gender. Whats the conclusion of it? Ive wasted my time, I got my heartbroken. Worth it? Hell no. This year, i hope nothing comes in my way of persuing my goals for this year. I wanna make sure that when i look back, 2010 was filled with good memories and also that feeling of satisfaction. Also, i hope that 2010 is the year when I really start a whole new chapter, and that for what Ive done for 2010, it will change the rest of my life.

Academic wise, Alhamdullilah, another good start. Have been catching up well in class lately for all subjects except for maths - as usual. New subjects turned out to be fun with Mr Chew - Biology, Mr Rodney - P.E and the usual, Mr Tan for Geography. So far so good, but Im more sleepy in class thisyear than last year and im not sure why. But, Mr Thomas did said, 'mira, i can see that youre working extra hard this year, huh. well done!' yeaaaaaaa. that cheered me up a lil bit :D

Rooming. Change roomie. Now with Shazira. Omg, i miss IMDV, i swear. bestf, will we be close again? I hope so *crossfingers*. So, my bunkmate is Shazira, And also stucked in the same room as Shaila an Suhaila. AWESOME. hahaha. now, im missing #04-47. Zamanzaman nabbs. hahahah. i miss you la nabbzxzxz. So far, no problems with roomies, Syukur.

Others. I can tell you only two things now. Im not in the mood to love. And. Im busy.
Maybe this is just a cocked up feeling that i had last time during His time. and then only when he leave me, i will tend to go back to him. Shit. Somehow, i miss you.


Mcm lilin with fire. Bila ade angin sikitkn the flame will jogetjoget. But. Do you let the fire just blow off, or work to keep on burning?