Move On. Dont hold On.

It felt like you were hiding something,

but I didnt push it, I didnt complained or say nothing.

I tried acted like I didnt see it,

cause deep down I knew I didnt want to believe it.

And there it was, it was you and her.

I thought it was you and I.

Now all I got to say is Why?

After all the times that we tried,

I find out that we were living a lie.

Specially for you; Nurul Suhaila

i feel all alone, when youre not with me.

i feel like thrash. i know, for sure you've read the text i've sent you yesterday night. yes. think of it. i really hope the decision that youve made is really what you want. well,at least i thought i was your pillar and strength - like what you were to me. go and take your time. slowly. easily. * apart from that, i hate what im feeling now. you left me so wounded. you told me i woudnt understand. i know how youre feeling, i know because i've been thru. its like. you really dont know what you want, until you get yoself in a fucked up situation. but baby, why does it have to be now? you told me not to be upset. you told me you dont want to break my heart. oh honey, you already did. it sucks to know that i found you, it sucks to be in the situation we are in now. but wait. yeah,youre right. i dont understand you - how come the last time we met everything was perfectly fine, and then the Next day youre telling me all the bullshit stuffs?

; I should have known that Youre gonna break my heart.

I was good, a few seconds ago. I swear.

I wouldnt deny that You were always there to keep me smiling and move on everyday.


I didnt expect anything like this to happen to us. I swear, I didnt see that coming. I dont know what you want exactly. Now, you kept me thinking - that feeling just came overnight, or it has been going on for days? If it has been, you should have told me earlier.

I couldnt believe myself that I fall for someone like you. You. But, you made me feel so comfortable. I was myself whenever Im with you.

When was the last time I really fall for a guy? Tell me. All I did, was mingle around. And so I met you and I decided to stick to you. But then, You were the one who broke my heart. How cliche is that?

I dont know how i should feel now, i swear to god. Should I be sad because this might be the end of us? Which I already think it is? Or. should i just stay calm, and relax. Because youre not worth it.

But. Why now? Youre telling me all the crappy stuffs after all that we've been through. Ive expected alot from you and. I just hate the feeling Im feeling now. What the fuck.


I still cant believe how much I depended on you on stuffs and most importantly, Your Love.
I guess that for us being friends now just doesnt seem right. I mean, is this what you really want long ago? I know, i told a couple of my friends that We wouldnt last. But i wasnt expecting it to be this 'long'.

Im still curious about whats keeping you so stressed out. Or is it just because you needa break. I dont know.

If you give me a chance, I would start it all over again. All over. But make sure you stick to your decision. And. Ergh. Fuck it.


Remember, I told you before that;
For it was not into my ears that you whispered. But into my heart.
Its not my lips that you kissed. But my soul.

just remembered. My life was always so suckish and never been right. Wait. It still is.
It sucks to know that Im tearing now. Because of you.







"I remembered what you wore on our first date. Maybe its true,that i cant live without you. And maybe its true, and now im thinking that two is better than one."

When i grip your arms tight, this song will then just appear in my head. Thats when you hear me humming the song,love.

Shoots. Keep thinking about it yesterday night. Im sorry IMDV, i couldnt talk much to you. Im sorry. But i know that you dont want me to feel hurt and fall down, just because of Him. I need to keep myself occupied. Guys? Nope. Clique first :)

Thanks Rainbow, Frinny and IMDV for being there for me(:

Cayenne, keep yourself avail this sunday okay. Remember.

Private blog updated (:

Planning a Girls Night Out outing with IMDV, Chantal and Kat. EXCITED GILE BABII.

ABCs of love?

Accept, Believe, Change.

so now. do i accept the fact that he doesnt even like me? and then, believe that he is never going to be mine. therefore, change, whats the point, he aint coming after anyway.

OR

Accept for the time, believe one day can be urs, change for the better?

should i still go for you? or move on? but then.. i'll get hurt again, dont i?

to you; you know its you, as youve been told.. i hope my love for you last long, and therfore, thy shall accept..